I spent like a year in my current church waiting for the terrible thing that I was sure was going to go wrong and derail everything. I had been so beaten up by the last few years before that trying (and failing) to rescue a C&MA church that had gone off of the rails. The terrible thing never happened, it was all a construction of my own anxiety. I am now living with an assurance that I am where God wants me to be, in a church I appreciate and can contribute.cmbl wrote:True. We've trained ourselves to question whatever comes over the pulpit, and it's difficult to turn that off. To trust again.LJones wrote:anxiety. When we finally do find something it is difficult to get rid of that security blanket of fighting heresy (imagined or real). That, in my opinion, is the origin of unsettled nature in many "converts." You have to labor to get rid of that madness. Otherwise you will continue to look for the bad in everything. Before you know it you will end up being alone, deceived, and nuts.
Still, sometimes it takes time to shake off the bad experiences. Kinda reminds my of the opening of Arise my soul arise.
J.M.